Blogging is harder than I thought; I've been thinking about this since my last (first) post, 9 days ago, and hoping that the perfect blog post idea would come to me; something profound and inspiring and brilliant. Then I will feel comfortable inviting people to my blog, and they will all read my writing and be amazed and leave wonderful comments (and an editor or agent will call me and ask me to write a book). LOL! Yeah, right. Like that would ever happen after just a single post ... but it sure is a nice fantasy, isn't it?
So, how do you decide what to write about? I could always write about my husband, but I don't want to. I could write about my kids, but I don't want to do that, either. And I would never write about my work.
Instead, I have been thinking a lot lately about who I am, and trying very hard to find a definition outside of wife and mother. It's been more difficult than I thought it would, and I don't know if I'll ever be able to find a description of myself that I am truly happy with, but maybe that's the point. Maybe I need to keep growing and learning and moving to be truly happy with who I am. Maybe that is what will, eventually, define me... I can always hope, can't I?
Sunday, June 10, 2007
Hello. Please be gentle with me, this is my first time. Yes, it's true. I am a novice, a neophyte; I am a blog virgin. Oh, I've been reading blogs for nearly a year (once I figure out how, I'll add a blogroll), but I'm finally taking the plunge and writing my first post. I've been thinking about it since July 2006; I even had my blog title at the beginning of August, but I haven't posted anything because I've been afraid. "Afraid of what?" you ask. Well, I’m afraid that nobody will find this blog, or that people will find it and not like it, or they'll like it but not comment, or the comments will be about how badly I’m writing (like this long, run-on sentence). I’m afraid of other things, too, like internet safety, identity theft, job security. But, I have finally decided to do it. I’m going to start this blog, and I’m going to follow the advice of Anne Lamott and Dorothea Brande, and I’m going to write every day. Some days I may even share what I’ve written with you.